Cast All Your Cares Upon Him …
“Cast all your care upon Him for He cares for you.” (I Peter 5:7)
Did you ever have a day that starts out right but goes downhill fast??? That was me yesterday. I woke up at 5:30, got dressed and wandered to the basement for my 45 minutes on the treadmill. I believe there is no better way to start your day than with a nice brisk walk. Indeed, it gets all your energy flowing. So with music blaring (because my husband is at work, and my son is sound asleep 2 floors above me), I’ve gotten my pace steady and strong.
But then I SEE A MOUSE RACE ACROSS THE FLOOR!!!!! I’m lucky I didn’t fall off the treadmill — lol. Instead, I up the pace, up the music and try to forget that my basement has a mouse. About 5 minutes later, I’m refocused. I’m walking and reading my book (anything to distract me from the screen in front of me) and from the corner of my eye I see this big black thing run across the floor. I am sure if my heart hadn’t been beating so fast from walking, it would have stopped. It only took the longest second in history to realize the kitten had followed me downstairs. Therefore, it wasn’t a rat…phew:/
Soon after, I finished my treadmill time, headed upstairs to get ready for the day. It was going to be a great day, even if it was Monday and the first hour was already way too exciting (not). Seriously, how could it not be a great day????
Yeah, right! I spent the day refereeing four 3yr old girls who fought ALL morning, chased a teething 8 month old who thinks cat food should be lunch but who also wouldn’t let me out of her sight for more then 10 seconds at a time. Together, we made rice crispy squares and spilled the cereal everywhere. Moreover, getting veggies eaten at lunchtime was a battle. And then came nap time, usually my most favorite time of day but not yesterday.
Yesterday, all it did was remind me of all the dreams I had as a child — of how my life was supposed to be — of friends I’ve lost over the years — of all the decisions I’ve made in my life that I regret (I don’t usually regret much because each decision made me into the awesome person I am … but yesterday, admittedly, was a different kind of day). By the time my munchkins headed home, I was an emotional mess. I looked great on the outside but my insides wanted to curl up in bed and cry.
I cooked my family chicken noodle soup and grilled cheese sandwiches for supper, grabbed the laptop and curled up on the couch and watched a movie. I had hoped distraction would take my mind away from the wandering ‘what ifs’ that had taken over. Sadly, it didn’t work, although it was nice to watch a movie all by myself for a change though
After an hour of the movie, I decided it was time to just go to bed thinking that maybe sleep would help. But, as we all know, the mind is a terrible thing sometimes. I actually felt like I wasn’t really all that important (or awesome – haha) by the time I crawled into bed. I felt more like I didn’t make a difference in anyone’s life … like I could just cry for hours (of course I wouldn’t, because I never share my feelings anymore) and then my stepmom commented on my Facebook status and told me to sit down (I was already in bed) get quiet (no problem as I was alone) and PRAY for His wonderful counsel. I did.
A simple prayer — asking our Lord God and Saviour to take away all my insecurities, to forgive me for forgetting that I make a difference in a whole bunch of lives. Thanking Him for giving me each and every thing that I had forgotten to appreciate that day. Thanking Him for LOVING me even on days I didn’t deserve it.
After I prayed, I finally had peace. My self imposed burden was gone. Why Because I let God take it and destroy it … and in turn allowing Him to fill that spot with His peace and love, — a much better option in my opinion;)
Today will be a better day. The sun is shining and my heart and mind are at peace. The baby is napping and the 3 year olds are playing happily This is the day that the Lord hath made. So if you are struggling with a day of days, like I was yesterday, turn those burdens holding you down over to God. Let Him fill you with His peace, love and acceptance. We are all going to have bad days, but letting them go will make the next day brighter instead of darker … because with God all things are possible ❤