Let Jesus Lead Me Into Wisdom and Truth
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will hear you. You will seek Me and find Me, when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you,” declares the Lord, “and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile.” (Jeremiah 29:11-14
My brain was telling me to stop thinking about it, but my heart was on hope mode. My sensible side kept saying ‘you left this in Gods hands so let Him show you where He wants your life to go’. I didn’t listen.Let me add this too. When satan is trying to destroy your faith, he can be the nicest person around, the nicest voice in your head, especially when you are looking to our Lord God and Saviour to show us the way.And as a consequence, yesterday, I was an emotional wreck. I was trying my best to not cry, to not show my heartbreak as my kiddies were getting dropped off. I’m not sure whether I was totally successful but I sure did my best. Here I was, having handed God the reins to my life and then decidedly, taking them back. I’m pretty sure that the added knowledge that I did this only made the heartache worse. How can I help others follow a better plan for their life that includes the King of the universe if I couldn’t let go myself?!?!Well, yesterday afternoon, I said sorry to my Heavenly Father for forgetting to leave my life in His hands. And when I prayed. I also let go. As I did, I was reminded that I gave been given a chance to make a positive difference in a whole bunch of little lives. So, instead of crying, I hugged each and every one of them. I realized how blessed I am to love so many children, far more than I would if I had a few more of my own. I might not be the biological mom of more than one but I’m definitely a surrogate mom to a whole bunch. And when the day comes that each one of them leaves my care, I hope I made a difference in their lives that lasts a lifetime.Thus, for now, I’m not going to dwell on a lost dream because it’s not lost. It’s just not on my time anymore. I’ve kicked that nice sweet voice back out of my head because he isn’t welcome there anymore. And the only voice I’m letting into my mind, heart and soul is the only one that speaks truth and love. That is, my Lord and Saviour who has the most unique plan for my life. “I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord.