“Fear thou not for I am with thee. Be not dismayed for I am thy God. I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of My righteousness.” (Isaiah 41:10)
I have a tooth with a cavity. The pain drives me crazy sometimes but I have been trying to hold off until my husband has dental coverage. As most people without coverage know, dental care is expensive. But I think my days of waiting are coming to a close because it has started bothering me constantly these last few days. Tomorrow, I will be calling a dentist to book an appointment for the afternoon of Christmas Eve. Yay me!
When my tooth has bothered me before, I have taken an Advil. Normally, it hides the pain in an hour or less. After a while, I needed two Advil. More recently though, I have had to use Advil several times a day, and now, I am putting Orajel on the gums to numb them. This is my last resort for making the pain go away. It is not a problem with care. I floss that one tooth upwards of six times a day. I should also mention that I hate the dentist. I don’t know why but before I get into the dentist chair, I’ve already started shaking.
As I was thinking about what to write tonight, I found myself rubbing my jaw because I can feel the tooth starting to ache again. I know that thirty minutes in a dentist chair and I would be fixed right up with no more pain. There is a portion of my blog that always unites my inward thoughts with my Lord God and Saviour so here is my revelation.
We often find ways to numb our pain. Some people use alcohol. Others use distractions like television, sports or work. Then there are others who lash out at the world. It is all part of our human makeup to ignore the hurt and act like everything is alright. To tell the world that we are okay when indeed, that might not be the case. In fact, men joke that when a woman says she’s ‘fine’ you should throw chocolate at her. There is some measure of truth to this.
But here is my point. I was racing home from work the other day because I had to pick up the rest of my family so that we could go see a play downtown. I was hitting all the red lights and I was getting frustrated. I don’t have much patience anyway. At the lights just a few blocks from home, I realized that I could just pray for God to work out the details for me. He has promised to be there in every moment, not just the big ones but in the small inconsequential too. I was worried if we didn’t get there on time, we wouldn’t be allowed into the show and the money would go to waste. So I asked God what I needed for everything to come together. What happened? We were at the theatre with ten minutes to spare. We barely hit any red lights the whole way back and everything was much better.
As humans, there are burdens we carry that we pretend aren’t there. I have carried emotional hurts caused by another person for a long time. I have used many scenarios to hide it. I have lashed out when people have raised the issue by slinging their own hurts caused by this person at them and I have used distractions to make me stop thinking about it. But God doesn’t get distracted. He has a plan and purpose for me and I can’t do both. I can’t hold onto things that He doesn’t want me to hold on to AND pray that God will use me to fulfill His plan. It contradicts itself and it can’t be done. No one can serve two masters.
What I do know is that God is working with me and helping me get through my struggle. And He is way more persistent (and patient) than a toothache can be. I know, though without a doubt, that if I allow Him to work with me through the pain, then He will heal my body and I will be closer to fulfilling His destined purpose. And yes, He can do the same for you too!