There Is A Better Way
“For by grace you have been saved through faith … and this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God.” (Ephesians 2:8)
Decisions? Have you ever made a decision that you regretted? I’m not talking about dying your blond hair black or vice versa. I mean making a choice that you already knew was wrong but you did it anyway??? I have. Indeed, I have done this a few times actually. Once I stole a two cent caramel from a store. I actually had the money to buy it (since I was at the store buying treats anyway) but I took it nevertheless. I’ve never forgotten that moment because my best friend was in the store with me. She saw what I did and she told me that I wasn’t being a good child of Christ by doing that. I never told anyone that story. And my best friend has probably forgotten it all by now. But in that moment, I realized that if I continued to make bad choices, I wouldn’t live the life that God wanted for me.
When I was older, I got into a car after a night of drinking (I was young and clueless about drinking and driving) with a few friends. The girl driving was drinking as well, and we wanted food so we drove to the local Subway. Nothing happened until she drove up on a huge curb in the parking lot. It was then I realized that it could have been soooo much worse than a scare. That choice led me to never drive with an intoxicated person again.
Years later, when I was a single mom, I let a man who was in a relationship tell me everything I needed to hear. He told my broken self esteem that I was beautiful. He told me he wanted to love me forever. He told me stories about where we would go and how beautiful our kids would be. Needless to say, my self esteem got better but my relationship with Jesus was going the wrong way fast. I grew considerably from that experience. I learned a lot about myself and what God wanted me to become. I walked away, prayed, and restored my relationship with God. And when I did this, something amazing happened. God gave me everything I needed to fulfill my needs — an awesome husband. Today, I can honestly say that I am a better person because it happened.
I am not suggesting that others follow my lead. Please don’t. But what I am saying is that with each choice I made — each VERY WRONG choice — God turned into a way for me to have a better relationship with Him. Never think you can’t turn things around. God has a plan for you (and me). Say sorry to those who deserve to hear it, ask for forgiveness, and learn from your mistakes. I did and as much as I now regret some of the choices I’ve made, I can’t change them. What I can do is trust Jesus going forward to use my mistakes to make me into a much better person.