This past week, I was reading another blog about a small boy who has a rare disease. His mother and father take turns sending updates to family and friends and being specific on what to pray for. I do not know these people personally but the internet makes the world small. As I was reading, the mother was talking about how she keeps hope in her heart, even when things are seemingly really bad. In the dark places. In the scary places. She makes the faith journey quite simple really. This has been on my mind a lot lately.
She said it is her choice whether she wants to ‘live a meaningless life in a meaningless world’ that has no God and no purpose or she can choose to be part of God’s story. The journey where the world does have meaning and purpose, and for those who choose to be a part of His story — a wonderful reward. This has changed my thinking lately because I wonder how much I am doing in my day to day that doesn’t really have a purpose.
Do you know what I absolutely love about God? He’s always setting the stage so that everything falls right into place — because He is the best stage director there is. A month or so ago, while I was still battling with my choice of being a full time, stay at home mom, a thought crossed my mind. Now I know when something is a me thought and when something is a God thought because the me thoughts usually come when I am thinking directly on the subject. And the God thoughts? Well, these come completely out of nowhere!
So where am I now? Well, I have two options. I can spend the next 15-20 years of my life helping to build a business by studying about the business world, updating my administration skills, attending courses and seminars pertaining to my field of study, and successfully build a career that will make me an asset to a company. (This may sound kind of like I’m tooting my own horn but I’m a go big or go home kind of person). And yes, this part does have me kind of nodding my head and bopping to the music.
I should add here, however, that this is how God always does it with me. He sets me up so that I’m riding on cloud nine, and then, He throws in the punch line. Or, He says, “You can spend the next 15-20 years building Godly Christian men who live to serve their God, wives, family and friends in a way that shows God’s love for His children.” I can spend time studying the Bible and seeking God’s wisdom and knowledge so that I can be assured success in this, which by the way is actually — ultimately God’s success. Why? Because without my Lord God and Saviour, I am nothing. Without Him in my life, I am living a meaningless life, in a meaningless world. Indeed, my sheer existence is meaningless. Let that soak in for just a second.
I believe that I serve an Almighty God who can and does work good through any circumstance we have. And with His guidance, I know that if I choose to be a full time working mother, He will be there every moment of my day taking care of me. The Bible tells us that He builds us to succeed in whatever we do — when whatever we do in word or deed, we do in His precious name. So working mom or stay at home mom, I am meant to be a daughter of the Most High King.
Therefore, which choice has become more valuable for me? Rightfully, I am choosing to be a stay at home mom. I am choosing to spend the next 15-20 years building Godly Christian men. I am choosing to be a part of God’s story, even in the good, the bad and the ugly because I have learned that Jesus never fails.