Ten days! That is how long it has been since I had an hour to myself. By myself, I mean with no people around me, while I’m wide awake and not climbing in or out of bed. I giggle when I see posts on social media about going to the bathroom to just have a minute to yourself. I often think it’s not that hard to get an hour of peace and quiet, an hour to just be still, an hour to pause and reflect … an hour to pray. I won’t giggle anymore because now that I’ve stepped back and looked at my life, I realize that my days are filled with so much stuff and responsibility, that it’s passing by and I’m missing it. It took ten days of trying to find an hour to write a new blog, to realize this.
With my husband working away three weeks a month, my hockey and lacrosse playing, referee and umpiring 14 year old, and my jobs (the one I get paid for and the one that comes with being the only adult in my home — the cooking, cleaning, bill paying), life is busy. Sure, I get a few minutes by myself in the car, while I’m waiting for my 14 yr old son to finish an activity. But they don’t count. I love my life. But with this realization, I have now come to the conclusion that I need more than an hour to myself every ten days.
I wonder if this is how Jesus felt when He would wander into the wilderness to pray.
Mark 1:35-37 states, “And in the morning, rising up a great while before day, He went out, and departed into a solitary place, and there prayed. And Simon and they that were with Him followed after Him, and when they had found Him, they said unto Him, “All men seek for Thee.”
Imagine, the following Jesus had would rival any Twitter or Instagram account. The multitudes that were everywhere. He could not just hit the power button and walk away. These were humans who followed Him — everywhere. They wanted to know Him, be healed by Him, and thus, the multitudes were seeking Him at all hours of the day, waiting for the next miracle. Jesus didn’t get an off button but He knew that in order to get time to pray, He just had to do it.
“And He withdrew Himself into the wilderness, and prayed.” (Luke 5:16)
I wonder how many people realize that we have forgotten to take an hour to recharge, to pray, to renew our relationship with Jesus … because we have let life take over???? In the current world, there are so many distractions to keep us busy (probably more than in any other period in time) and I’m pretty sure that as a consequence, we are all running on empty. We can’t LIVE when we are on empty. We can’t experience His goodness and grace when we are just coasting through.
Instead of allowing the world to dictate the expectations for this day, spend some time and find your ‘wilderness’ — and use it. An hour a day to recharge, to pray, to connect with Jesus. An hour a day to stop coasting through life, finding instead ways to actually live and enjoy life as He fully intended, when He placed His purpose in our hearts whilst we were still in our mother’s womb. 😉