The Lord warned us of these times whereby the devil will try anything and everything to destroy our very core. Our inner sense of being, wherein we don’t waver even in the tough times. But I have to admit that none of this is easy. Please allow me to explain. I’m tired. Not just physically tired though…..cause I’m exhausted on that one. I’m mentally tired. I’m tired of being responsible. I’m tired of always having to be who others want me to be. I’m tired of holding who I am inside. I’m tired of being taken advantage of. I’m tired of working long hours but still being broke. I’m tired of not being able to go out for supper as a family. I’m tired of second guessing myself when I need to buy something for me. I’m tired of seeing everyone’s happy growing families when mine isn’t. I’m tired of people trying to talk me in to doing something I just don’t want to do. I’m tired of hearing about how our only family vacation made us broke. I’m tired of being stressed on the inside while smiling on the outside. I’m tired of my job. I’m tired of being the one who does all the cooking. I’m tired of laundry and sweeping. I’m tired of doing my own hair. I’m tired of being on the go all day long.
I’m tired from not getting a chance to be me. I’m tired from giving all of me to everyone else and getting nothing in return. I’m tired from taking on all our families stresses and not being able to fix them. I’m tired from feeling like I’m not good enough. I’m tired from feeling like I don’t work hard enough.
I’m tired because satan is attacking my family from every angle he can. He is trying to destroy the good in my life so I will give up the fight. I’m tired because satan has taken a few loose pebbles in my foundation and he is trying to turn them into cracks.
I am tired because every day when I wake up….he starts all over again….his pursuit of destruction is relentless. He is determined to shake my faith, to destroy my trust and to make me forget the truth I know.
But he can’t.
He can’t because I know Jesus is my Lord and Saviour and he was willing to die on a cross so I wouldn’t have to be tired. My faith is unshakeable. My trust is unstoppable. And I know Jesus’s love is endless and he will help me overcome these difficult times. I can’t see the big picture yet but I know I’m blessed beyond measure, and I am holding on in faith that this too will pass, and my foundation will remain solid.
2 Corinthians 1:10-11
10 Who delivered us from so great a death, and doth deliver: in whom we trust that he will yet deliver us;
11 Ye also helping together by prayer for us, that for the gift bestowed upon us by the means of many persons thanks may be given by many on our behalf.